Participant #1:
You are listening to Hello Cupcake. It's Me, a podcast with your host, Michael Peterson. Hey everyone. Michael here with Hello Cupcake, it's Me, a podcast. Today is March 24, 2022 and how are you? This is episode 15. So last night I went out to the bar and did my usual Tuesday, Wednesday trivia and I actually drink for the first time in like a long time. I mean, I had a shot on my two shots on my birthday, but last night I was just feeling kind of Drinky. I know that's not a word, but still. So I had a few shots last night and it was nice. Not that I'm like a huge advocate of going out and drinking or whatever, but considering that I used to be a heavy drinker in my early 20s and the fact that I went from drinking copious amounts of alcohol to not having a drink at all for months or years at a time has been really kind of interesting. But none of my friends up here have ever really seen me drunk. They've only seen me drunk once. But after you don't have any alcohol in your system for quite some time, the slightest little bit of alcohol tends to really fuck you up. So usually whenever I go to the bar I just have a glass of cranberry juice and that's all I drink all night long. It's just cranberry juice. And last night I was like, you know what? I want a vodka cranberry. So I went ahead and ordered myself a vodka cranberry and sat there and drank it and was just having fun. And I wasn't paying any attention. And I forgot all about the fact that I had this vodka cranberry and I went to take a big drink of it because I was starting to get super thirsty and forgot that it was spiked and took like almost the entire glass of cranberry and vodka straight to the head. And I started getting really tipsy. I was like, oh fuck, this isn't good anyway. But yeah, just had a lot of fun bullshitting and talking with my friends and making new friends and just having a lot of fun. And if you've been following along on YouTube and even the blog, you know, for a while now I have been seriously depressed and just not doing well. And I'm thinking and I'm hoping that is in the rear view mirror because the last couple of days I have felt really good and I made up this Facebook post about just kind of like putting it out into the universe how I've been feeling the last few months. And I ended it with saying I just need to burp the Tupperware before I put this away for now or before I put this away and I feel like I've significantly done that. I've just burped the Tupperware and I was able to deal with all my upsets and my depression and have been able to put it away. Now it could just be the post like the day after Glowy effect. And that's not saying that Friday or Saturday, I'm not going to fall back into a depression, but just right now I'm feeling good and I'm hoping that I can keep that headspace about me.

Participant #1:
It's funny to me that usually people going to a bar is a problem in their life, but for me it's fixing a problem in my life. I don't know, just kind of funny to think about. Yeah. I think in the last YouTube video or the last podcast I mentioned that one of the things that I'm doing to try to bring myself back to a state of happiness is that I've been working on doing a website for the podcast. And on this new website that I'm putting together, it's going to have the podcast at the very top with the latest, the latest episode playable right there in the browser window. And then after that it goes YouTube and it shows like six of the most recent YouTube videos that I've uploaded. Then after that is blog posts, and then after that is Twitter. Or I might go blog posts on Twitter. I can't remember right now, but I just really enjoyed making this website. And I have this rudimentary knowledge of HTML, like 1995 version HTML. Back when the Internet was still in its infancy, I taught myself how to code using old HTML. So I use a program or a website called Weebly.

Participant #1:
What you see is what you get type of website builder and it's drag and drop. So like, say you want a text section, then you drag it over and drop it and then boom, you have a text section and you don't even have to code it in. But there's a lot of times where when I'm using that platform or any other type of platform that I cannot think of how to code it in today's new HTML Nine or 30,000 or whatever version they're on. And I don't know CSS or JavaScript, but I'll get in there and I will use the old HTML and I'll start programming it. And in doing so, you can see the new technology and the new coding running through the system and it's like, oh, shit, wait a minute, this is old code, but it'll work, but it's old. And so I have to go in there and just like handwrite a bunch of code a lot of times to make it work the way that I want it to work. So that's been challenging and that's also been sparking that creativity that I need and want and has also just been fun and challenging. So I've been using that as my outlet for some of my energy and stuff and to try to distract me from everything else that's going on. Yeah, I'm trying to find my way back to Happy or some semblance thereof. And right now I think I've done a pretty decent job in doing that. So usually I paint or I do some kind of creative activity, but I haven't had any canvases or anything to work with in quite a while. And I've actually been thinking about starting up painting again. And I'm not Picasso in any sense of the word. My painting skills are very rudimentary again is a good word to use. I don't know what my style is. It's kind of like kindergarten Impressionistic, I guess would be the best way to put it. Like, you can look at the painting and you know what it is, but it's just not a very good representation. And artists are always the hardest on themselves. So like, somebody else would see it and be like, oh my God, this is amazing. And beauty is in the eye of the B holder. So just like, okay, if you like it, then it must be good or something. And there's been a few times where I have done artistic drawings or artwork for friends and family, for Christmas presents and stuff. Like one year I drew or I painted the Grinch's hand picking up a Christmas tree ornament. And then I put a strip of silver around it and put glitter over it. And then I painted the person's name across the ornament so that it made it just really special for them. Or if I was given it to a family who are like my friends, I would put their last name across it. So in that way it would be like a family gift instead of just an individual gift. So when you're living on an extreme fixed income, you always try to come up with fun, unique ways to do handmade gifts so that you can make your dollar stretch. And I know that the holidays isn't always about like the presence or whatever, but for me, I like to try to give each person in my life that means something to me, a little something. And sometimes it's a handmade gift, sometimes it's a storebought gift. And I know for whatever reason people always think like, oh, handmade means that it's crap. But I don't know if you go on Pinterest in places like that, you can see some really amazing handmade items that aren't crap. I'm not giving people macaroni necklaces or anything, so I'm going to stop rambling and hop off of here. But if you guys have any questions, comments, concerns, please put them in the comment section down below or leave me a voicemail. I would really love to hear some of your feedback. I see that as of the recording of this particular podcast that I've had over 71 people listening. So that's really amazing. Thank you guys so much for that. And please show your support by subscribing to this channel or just start up a dialogue and interaction. I would love to be able to talk with you guys and make things a little bit more personable across the board. So yeah until next time I will talk to you all later. Bye guys. Thank you so much for tuning in. You have been listening to hello cupcake, it's me a podcast with your host Michael Peterson. Please make sure to check back often as new episodes are released by weekly. If you have any questions, comments or concerns please feel free to send a message to hello cupcake, it's me@gmail.com and until next time stay happy safe and keep doing the best you can with what you have been given.