Participant #1:
You are listening to Hello Cupcake, It's Me, a podcast with your host, Michael Peterson. Hey everyone. Michael here with Hello Cupcake, it's Me, a podcast. Today is Wednesday, March 16, 2022, and how are you? And today is my birthday and I'm a whopping 41 years old today.

Participant #1:
So about all that. It's been a good birthday so far. I went out to lunch with my sister and my niece and we went to a local park and just had like a little picnic. Nick, they had a little birthday cake for me and did the little cake and candle thing and just had fun. And later on this afternoon, I'm going to be meeting up with a friend of mine and we are going to do just a little other cake and coffee type of thing at one of the little local restaurants. Since they've lifted the mask mandate where I live, we're going to be able to go to the cafe and just have pie and coffee. And I might even get myself a hamburger or something. I don't know. And then also later on tonight, I might be going to the local watering hole called the Crazy Otter and just hanging out for a little while and playing tap TV trivia. I've been really enjoying that the last week or so. Going and playing trivia. Tuesday nights is our tournament night where we play against a bunch of different bars nationwide and just having a lot of fun doing that. So I'm kind of glad that I'm forcing myself to get out of the house and go do that. And then also today, I went over to a girlfriend's house and hung out with her for a little bit and she just had to put her dog down. And so we sat there and cried for about 15 minutes in each other's misery and sorrow. Me recanting the story of having to put Bella down and her recanting the story of having to put her dog down Monday. So I was like, well, we have to get together and have another Christ session. She's like, right? We haven't really hung out and how many months has it been? And we get together. When we finally do get together, we're just crying. I'm like, yeah, but it is what it is. Anyways, had fun over there. She gave me a little birthday card and gotten a lot of happy birthday wishes on Facebook and stuff like that. So it's been pretty decent so far. Nothing really too extravagant. But at 41, what extravagances are supposed to be, right? I had a couple of people on YouTube from my YouTube channel send me a happy birthday. So like I said, it's just been really kind of nice right now. I'm really tired, though, because that cake was so sweet and I'm like barely staying awake right now. So I think after I'm done recording this podcast, I'm going to go take a little bit of a nap and then get up around 233 o'clock when my friend wants to get together and go to the cafe. And then depending on how long we're at the cafe, I might just go straight from the cafe over to the bar and hang out there for a little while. Don't know. Don't really have too many plans.

Participant #1:
Yeah. But prior to that, the last few days have been pretty hit or miss to the point where, like, there was one day where everything was just hitting me and I was emotionally raw. Didn't want to even be around myself was crying or if I wasn't crying, I was pissed off and angry. And then I was getting really depressed and mad at myself for being depressed and mad at myself for being mad at myself. And yeah, my biological mom, she called me up and it was just like the frosting on the cake, really. She's like, hey, stupid question. But were you born in 82 or 83? I I thought wasn't born in either one of those. She's like, Well, I know your sister was born in the 70s, but I can't remember when you were born. I was like, Because you weren't there. She went to bed, I went to sleep during the cesarean, and when I woke up, you were there. I said, well, that doesn't make any sense. Like, for the last 41 years, my birthday has always been the same day. And she's like, Well, I'm sorry, I just can't remember. I'm getting old or whatever. I'm just like, well, were you even there? So I had to dismiss myself from that phone call really quickly because I was going to go off on her. And what I was going to go off on her about was not anything that she particularly did. It was just like, oh, you're the 100th customer, Yay. You win. All the anger, the rage and the yelling and the screaming. And that just wouldn't have been fair to her, especially when she really didn't do anything except for forget the date of my birthday. So I just got to continuously remind myself that she is in her Seventies and a drug user still and that she's not the same person that I once knew.

Participant #1:
It takes a lot out of you having to try to remember that. And plus, she's ailing herself and has been in and out of the hospital multiple times since receiving her first vaccination shot with all kinds of new health problems that she's never had before. And just like,

Participant #1:
above and beyond that, the last few days, even though I've been in this kind of Gray blog depressive slump, they've been fairly okay. Just my emotions. I'm not in a good head space. Like I said before in the last podcast, I think that I haven't really been okay since October. And on Tuesday, my sister and I were talking about it and she said, yeah, Michael, you really need to get in to try to talk to somebody and just see what's going on. And I have reached out to several different therapists and psychologists in the area and left messages with them multiple times, just trying to get brought on as a new client. And they haven't even returned my phone call or anything like that. I was talking to a girlfriend of mine last night, and she said that one of her friends uses a telehealth system and that they accept my insurances. And so she was going to go see about getting me the information for that and then seeing maybe I could see somebody via telehealth or something like that. So I'm actually not opposed to that because I'm already set up for doing my YouTube videos and stuff. And I got a good microphone, I got a good camera. And if it means that I don't have to physically drive to a location and sit in front of somebody, I can do it all from the comfort of my own home, I think that might be a lot better for me. So I think I am going to look into the telehealth region or aspect of it, whatever you want to call it. If any of you listeners have any suggestions for telehealth that may accept Medicare Medicaid, please let me know and I'll check into it. But yeah, so that's pretty much it for right now. Just going through the ups and downs, and I feel like I'm going through the motions of just trying to find my happy again and trying to just get right with myself. And in the meantime, just trying to keep moving forward, I guess, is the best analogy I can use. And Thankfully, I have my new cat, Bernard or BWI. His name is actually Bernard, but he doesn't respond to Bernard. He comes to beoi. I have no idea where the name Baboy came from, except for I was trying to say baby and boy at the same time, and it came out by boy, so he responds to that. So that's his name. I just got him a little collar tag thing made up on Amazon

Participant #1:
name. It says Bernard, and then in parentheses are quote marks, it says Baby, and then his microchip number. And then on the back it has my name, my phone number, and my email address. And then his microchip is registered to me under Bernard. And because it's a trial membership or whatever, like a very basic membership, I can't change anything on there without them charging me $20 for it. So I'm just going to leave it as Bernard and call it good.

Participant #1:
My niece had given me a gift certificate to Amazon, so I used it to buy a harness for him. So I'm going to try to harness train him, and he rides in the car really, really well. And it would be kind of cool to have, like, a traveling cat.

Participant #1:
Yeah. I'm hoping that he takes to it as well as he's taken to his collar and it comes with a little leash and everything and it's adjustable it's also in this bright Orange and blue color and it's reflective on there too so hopefully he likes it and I can get him used to walking around on the leash with me and maybe get him to be not so skittish but now that I'm thinking about it I probably should cancel that order because he is Hyperly skittish and I don't think that he would do well walking on a leash. If I took them outside I might go ahead and just cancel order. Now that I'm thinking about it more and more I don't know but anyways I'm going to let you guys go because I feel like I'm starting to ramble so if you have any questions, comments, concerns put them in the comment section down below make sure you like and subscribe to this podcast channel and I will talk to you all later. Bye guys. Thank you so much for tuning in. You have been listening to Hello Cupcake it's me a podcast with your host Michael Peterson. Please make sure to check back often as new episodes are released by weakly. If you have any questions, comments or concerns please feel free to send a message to HelloCupcakeitsme@gmail.com and until next time stay happy, safe and keep doing the best you can with what you have been given.